For the first time, I feel that I really have a purpose. I have a true goal and real purpose in life. And that’s a big thing for me.
Without this meditation I would have never been able to reflect back on myself and my life. That’s for sure. Maybe I could have been able to cover up my pain or something with some other method, I don’t know. But I would have never been able to look back on myself and see how I have acted and what my role and my part were in everything. I would still have blamed the world and blamed everybody else and kept that mindset that it was everybody else’s fault and not mine. I’ve come to realize that it’s also a big piece of pride that I’m carrying around. For me it was always very important how I appear to others and I didn’t want to show myself weak, or didn’t want to open up to other people. So I closed myself.
I was always comparing myself with others. If that other somehow had achieved something more than me, I didn’t like that person. If that person had done less than me, then I could be ‘humble’. Then I could be a nice person and take care of that person. Then I thought I was great because I was so nice to that weak person. So that was my life. Always measuring, always trying to come across as the best somehow. If there was no competition, I could be nice.
It might sound strange maybe, at least from the culture I come from where we’re supposed to love ourselves and try to be better all the time. Because that’s something I really tried to do, to love myself, to tell myself I was great. This meditation method is a bit of opposite of that. You realize that you are not great. And that’s actually a big relief. It’s really a big relief. Because it’s a big burden, walking around thinking you are great, and thinking that you have to be great all the time. Now that I am freeing myself from that ego and pride, the world around me has become nicer; it treats me more gently nowadays. Yeah, it’s funny. Before, the world was my enemy. It is not anymore.
I know I am on my way back home
As soon as I started the practice, and began to throw away the mental pictures of ideas, the concepts about me, the world, my life, and my relationships, I felt as if I am taking a huge burden off from my shoulder. The void that was created by deleting my imaginary world is filled up now with natural clarity. Everything in my life has been positively affected by this meditation. My family relationships, my work, the relationship I have with others, and most importantly, the relationship with me.
I learned to accept others and life events as they are, without analyzing, judging or classifying. The people that I interact with are dealing with me with much more ease now; because there is no need to prove anything to me and I am not trying to prove anything to them.
This meditation allows me to create a “space” between me and the things that are happening to me, and in that space I have the opportunity to decide how to react on whatever that is happening. My life now has meaning, hope, and goals. I know I am on my way back Home. I cordially recommend and invite all of you who are now reading these words to call the nearest center and start practicing it immediately. This meditation changed and saved my life and it will do the very same for yours.
You start to see yourself, the way you are in all aspects of your life
The cool thing about this meditation method is that it has this ability to show you who you are from a much bigger perspective than yourself. It is really hard to see yourself as yourself, so the method has this way of showing yourself from a bigger perspective. Then you get to reflect on yourself on how you actually are and you see things in yourself. And I saw things in myself that I did not realize that I had before the method. I think that is one of the biggest strength of this meditation. Speaking from my own experience, I found it really hard to bring big changes within myself but this method has helped me get rid of my habits and useless negative thoughts.
I am definitely happier now and also just more relaxed. I feel better within myself and that is the best way to define happiness for me. Also, I am more focused. I mean I work with computers and it is important to have patience and really be able to focus throughout the day. I work with my head the whole day, thus it is so important to be able to be relaxed within myself. Not always trying to move, not always thinking about something else, just staying put; and the meditation has definitely helped me with that.
The meditation has also improved me as a husband and father. One problem that I think in many relationships I find is; you have this expectation of the other to give you something the whole time. You want to get something from that person. And I think the meditation has changed that perspective for me and my wife. It is now more about putting in the work yourself without underlying expectations for one another. Also, this meditation has changed the way I see my children. I seem them more as the way they are than I did before as a parent and as a father. There was a certain bias that came with the strong attachment that I had for my children. Getting rid of that, I think you start to see your family in a more realistic way. This is also good for the kids, because they feel that and they feel actually more relaxed around me.